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cosmolinguistI got an interview for that job I really want.
And I've been consumed with anxiety since I found out this afternoon. I know it should be good news but...there's so much to be anxious about. I haven't had a successful job interview since 2012 and I've had lots of failed ones since. I'm having a horrible depressive patch right now so I'm pretty sure I have absolutely no good qualities, which seems like a difficult starting point from which to convince other people that I do. I'm intimidated by having to do "an hour-long task" as part of the interview; I've never had that before. I hate that it's on Teams, which my laptop is way worse at than Zoom and which is less accessible to me.
Job applications and job interviews just leave my mental health shredded to bits.
And I've been consumed with anxiety since I found out this afternoon. I know it should be good news but...there's so much to be anxious about. I haven't had a successful job interview since 2012 and I've had lots of failed ones since. I'm having a horrible depressive patch right now so I'm pretty sure I have absolutely no good qualities, which seems like a difficult starting point from which to convince other people that I do. I'm intimidated by having to do "an hour-long task" as part of the interview; I've never had that before. I hate that it's on Teams, which my laptop is way worse at than Zoom and which is less accessible to me.
Job applications and job interviews just leave my mental health shredded to bits.
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Date: 2021-05-04 09:17 pm (UTC)That sounds incredibly familiar, and might be a starting point for a good interview - you can ask at the 'do you have any questions' stage whether they do everything on Teams, or whether they use Zoom, and explain that it's an accessibility issue for you. You could even email them before hand about it - it's a perfectly legitimate adjustment to ask for, under the circs.
Also remember that it's you also interviewing them to see if you want to work with them in this role. You may know them through other things, but do you want to work with them on this. Again, if they can't cope with your depressed self, then it may not be a good fit.
It costs a lot to do recruitment - several thousand pounds if it's gone to advert in the press - and so they want to get it right. You have a huge amount to offer any jobs - you're intelligent, you've just completed a degree as a mature student during a pandemic, and that shows dedication and commitment, you think about what you're doing and why, and you're awesome.
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Date: 2021-05-04 09:47 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2021-05-04 10:07 pm (UTC)