Sometimes it's better to light a flamethrower than curse the darkness

I'm surprised by how relieved I was. I thought I'd gotten to this point yesterday, when Biden was, like, "mathematically safe" but when Andrew told me the news I just crashed. Last night's nine hours of sleep being the exception, I've been getting like three or four hours of sleep a night for the past couple weeks so I was basically running on adrenaline and anxiety, and when that was removed I kinda crashed a little!

Watching a Black CNN anchor cry after announcing it, seeing friends' reactions ranging from personal relief to gleeful schadenfreude to determination to keep fighting all the other battles even as we celebrate all that today makes possible has been really good for me.

We had pizza and beer for Celebratory Dinner, with profiteroles for dessert if I want them. I think I'll be going to bed pretty early again then.